My state of Confusion

This is a true life thing!

 Life, they say is best lived in comfort, that's where no pain or worry is the order of the day.

Yet people like me most times live life in a state that's rather described than said. This state is

called "Confusion".

I have been pondering while all of a sudden things took a U-turn in me, as in things have not

being going the way I planned and wished they would go because the things which I love and

love doing most have become the ones that hunt me now the more and those things which I

totally dislike and hate have suddenly turned out to be my friend and as such living me as a

man who seems to be without focus. And the only question that comes to my confused mind

is Why? why? why?

    Nevertheless, as events that exposes a confused mind keeps unfolding daily in me

governed with the ability to now be sleeping every now and then and whiling away my 

precious time in things that are not too and will never be profitable to me, I come to realize 

that within my inner man lies the strength to stop whatsoever negatives that has left me in my

present state; yet as I struggle in trying to get out of this state, I suddenly find myself going

down the path which I have not chosen to tread, that part where when the story of your life is

told, it brings nothing but pains to the ears of whoever would hear such messed up stories.

Life is this you for me?

    In this state where every single thing has become a nightmare to me, I have every course to

ask certain questions which if possible I might not get to find the answer all through life and

as such I become so dumb that these words are rather kept in the mind than said out. More so,

Life most times I have been made to understand through life touching experiences that most

times life won't be so favorable.

   As such, all these have left me a man filled with several thoughts;  like "'what exactly in life

brings about certain situations that will destabilize us up to the extent that  we live life in total

confusion and a constant state of pondering on how best to manage life and get out of the

unfavorable state of confusion.

   Hence as I get more lost and lost in this state, I have come to realize that

- I can be confused but not dismayed.

- I can be confused but not destroyed,

- I can be confused but not weak and tired.

- I can be confused but that at the right time my confused mind will find rest.

- I can be confused but my heart and eyes are all fixed on the price instead of the pains.

- That while this state of confusion lasts, It will definitely leave me a stronger person.

   However, in all this knowing which I will rather call conviction; I find out that the more

convinced I am about how I am not dismayed, destroyed, not tired and weak etc  that it

becomes obvious that I am drowning constantly and so fast in a way that my inner mind

keeps telling me that help from man would be a solid waste of time because what man cannot

see, feel, perceive and taste he sure cannot find a lasting solution that will once again bring

joy and hope of a strong me living life under the influence of the conviction that life has

offered me every best and perfect gift which I must tap with utmost carefulness backed up

with the zeal of using them in the most favorable way so as to do exploits in life which used

to be my utmost dream.

   In essence of this realization, my inner man tells me that the sole answer to my confusion

lies in a place where my present state have all been paid for. Yes! I exclaimed as my inner

man gave me this solution because with it came a realized feeling that once again I will

spring forth out of everything that left me in my present state where everything seems to be \

nothing but  impossible to me. Suddenly, as this solution came I found myself sober because \

it came with the very realization that all I have wanted was to be the captain of my life by

trying at all cost in controlling every single thing that has been and will be happening in me

and within me and this in turn left me in my present state.

  Believe me, at this moment I realized I had a book some where in a corner of my room titled

 "The touch of excellence". This book has always been my guide because it has helped to

build me up and still will help in building me up because of its richness. Then as I realized

this I started to flip through the pages and suddenly this unforeseen state started to ease out

like a cloudy weather given way for a bright one. Thanks to The General Overseer of  

Salvation Ministries who at his own busy schedule still made out time to write such a rich

book that has and will help millions of people who at one point or the other will find

themselves in ugly situations of life.  


   Finally, as I ended reading this book, I came to realize that most times in life we use our

mouth and our thoughts in creating ourselves into a place  called "the state of confusion" in

life.

  
 Conclusively, to all those out there who have found themselves or will find themselves in

this shoe which I once found myself; I say to you be strong and never lose hope and faith on

yourself and on whoever you believe in but I suggest its best you believe on the supreme God

and more so try as much as possible as you can to stay positive at mind always no matter how

confused you will get. Furthermore, try as much as you can to confide in men and women

who are worthy of your trust and who in return would give you advice that can last you for a

life time..

   Once again stay put as I dive out of my present state of confusion into the realm where my

today and yesterday are nothing but lessons that has made me stronger and stronger for the

fierce battle that's ahead of me.