This is a true life thing!
Life, they say is best lived in comfort, that's where no pain or worry is the order of the day.
Yet people like me most times live life in a state that's rather described than said. This state is
called "Confusion".
I have been pondering while all of a sudden things took a U-turn in me, as in things have not
being going the way I planned and wished they would go because the things which I love and
love doing most have become the ones that hunt me now the more and those things which I
totally dislike and hate have suddenly turned out to be my friend and as such living me as a
man who seems to be without focus. And the only question that comes to my confused mind
is Why? why? why?
Nevertheless, as events that exposes a confused mind keeps unfolding daily in me
governed with the ability to now be sleeping every now and then and whiling away my
precious time in things that are not too and will never be profitable to me, I come to realize
that within my inner man lies the strength to stop whatsoever negatives that has left me in my
present state; yet as I struggle in trying to get out of this state, I suddenly find myself going
down the path which I have not chosen to tread, that part where when the story of your life is
told, it brings nothing but pains to the ears of whoever would hear such messed up stories.
Life is this you for me?
In this state where every single thing has become a nightmare to me, I have every course to
ask certain questions which if possible I might not get to find the answer all through life and
as such I become so dumb that these words are rather kept in the mind than said out. More so,
Life most times I have been made to understand through life touching experiences that most
times life won't be so favorable.
As such, all these have left me a man filled with several thoughts; like "'what exactly in life
brings about certain situations that will destabilize us up to the extent that we live life in total
confusion and a constant state of pondering on how best to manage life and get out of the
unfavorable state of confusion.
Hence as I get more lost and lost in this state, I have come to realize that
- I can be confused but not dismayed.
- I can be confused but not destroyed,
- I can be confused but not weak and tired.
- I can be confused but that at the right time my confused mind will find rest.
- I can be confused but my heart and eyes are all fixed on the price instead of the pains.
- That while this state of confusion lasts, It will definitely leave me a stronger person.
However, in all this knowing which I will rather call conviction; I find out that the more
convinced I am about how I am not dismayed, destroyed, not tired and weak etc that it
becomes obvious that I am drowning constantly and so fast in a way that my inner mind
keeps telling me that help from man would be a solid waste of time because what man cannot
see, feel, perceive and taste he sure cannot find a lasting solution that will once again bring
joy and hope of a strong me living life under the influence of the conviction that life has
offered me every best and perfect gift which I must tap with utmost carefulness backed up
with the zeal of using them in the most favorable way so as to do exploits in life which used
to be my utmost dream.
In essence of this realization, my inner man tells me that the sole answer to my confusion
lies in a place where my present state have all been paid for. Yes! I exclaimed as my inner
man gave me this solution because with it came a realized feeling that once again I will
spring forth out of everything that left me in my present state where everything seems to be \
nothing but impossible to me. Suddenly, as this solution came I found myself sober because \
it came with the very realization that all I have wanted was to be the captain of my life by
trying at all cost in controlling every single thing that has been and will be happening in me
and within me and this in turn left me in my present state.
Believe me, at this moment I realized I had a book some where in a corner of my room titled
"The touch of excellence". This book has always been my guide because it has helped to
build me up and still will help in building me up because of its richness. Then as I realized
this I started to flip through the pages and suddenly this unforeseen state started to ease out
like a cloudy weather given way for a bright one. Thanks to The General Overseer of
Salvation Ministries who at his own busy schedule still made out time to write such a rich
book that has and will help millions of people who at one point or the other will find
themselves in ugly situations of life.
Finally, as I ended reading this book, I came to realize that most times in life we use our
mouth and our thoughts in creating ourselves into a place called "the state of confusion" in
life.
Conclusively, to all those out there who have found themselves or will find themselves in
this shoe which I once found myself; I say to you be strong and never lose hope and faith on
yourself and on whoever you believe in but I suggest its best you believe on the supreme God
and more so try as much as possible as you can to stay positive at mind always no matter how
confused you will get. Furthermore, try as much as you can to confide in men and women
who are worthy of your trust and who in return would give you advice that can last you for a
life time..
Once again stay put as I dive out of my present state of confusion into the realm where my
today and yesterday are nothing but lessons that has made me stronger and stronger for the
fierce battle that's ahead of me.
